"Finally!" As I sit to begin to type, I find myself thinking "I've finally found time to blog!" It is with this exclamation that I realize all of my problems reside. A major fallacy lies within my statement, one that is at the crux of all of my struggles. I did not just find time to blog; I was making time to blog. Such a subtle difference and yet as I reflect, I realize this is my arch enemy, my Darth Vader, my Kryptonite, if you will. Like a teddy bear being stuffed, my life gets filled with tasks, obligations, and everyday responsibilities, leaving (what seems) little room for much more. And yet I long for so much more.
When my life hits a pot hole here and there, it seems I do not hesitate in the slightest to immediately seek God's guidance. Who wouldn't get their car fixed if it was damaged? My struggle is when my car is on a smooth road with few bumps. When life is going great, which I find is most of the time, I seem to forget God. As if my car is running on the gasoline of my own indulgence, I seem to make little time for God in my life. I crave to include God in all areas of my life; like a braid with three parts, me, my responsibilities, and God, all woven together with no distinction of where one begins and another ends.
My desire is to put God behind the wheel everyday even when the road conditions and weather suggest I can drive quite successfully myself. I want to see Him in more things, include Him in more things, and mediate on Him in all things. Finding Making time....for my Creator, my Sustainer, my Driver (or at least my GPS)!
God you are amazing and I thank you for
the blessings you have given me. I humbly ask forgiveness for taking all these blessings for granted and want you to be a part of ALL of my life not just the ugly patches. I look forward to a 24-hour walk (or drive) with you. Time to go make breakfast for my wonderful
family. Let's go God; I want you to be a part of it!
"He must become greater I must become less." John 3:30